So the world is silent but my mind is buzzing… it may or may not be 3:00AM ish New Years morning and this may or may not be the 100th time I’ve sat down to compose this blog thing and I may or may not have had to utilize the 90 calming seconds (multiple times) brain scientists say it takes to flush out the rush of frustrated emotion that comes when you work hours perfecting half a novel that is SURE to inspire the WHOLE world just to have it not save, or get locked out of your account due to password debacle, or the internet crashing or some other obstacle each time the attempt is made to write!! 90 seconds… deep breaths. Yesterday I thought this can’t be what God wants me to do but yet here I am unable to sleep with the same message on my brain…. A Movable Heart. Not every closed door or open door for that matter is from God. If that were the case I’d only look for doors rather than listen for His voice right!? So here I am attempt number 10,009,876 to scribble down something He put on my heart.
Yesterday I read in Ezra how the Lord moved king Cyrus’ heart to release the Jews from captivity yet I’m thinking so very few took advantage of that freeing… why?! Why choose to stay where I’m at when the Lord sets me free!!? Fear, insecurity, past failure… Proverbs 31:25 She is clothed with strength and dignity; she can laugh at the days to come. – Why/How?…Because – Psalm 31:14 But I trust in you, O Lord; I say, “You are my God.” My times are in your hands; – and not only that but Jesus is a God of second chances just look at Jonah chapter 2 and 3! John 8:36 So if the Son sets you free, you will be free indeed. Wow! So why again did so few leave when king Cyrus released the captives AND with so much blessing you read in Ezra 1:6-7! Our God is able why do we hesitate?! Ezra 1:5 Everyone whose heart God had moved – prepared to go up and build the house of the Lord in Jerusalem. – Everyone whose heart God had moved!!! Oh Lord take my heart and make it movable!
As I attempt to read through the bible chronologically this year I ask that God reveal Himself to me. That I would seek and speak Him… think and act Him. That He would ignite such a wild fire in my heart and bones that I just can not contain it!! (Jeremiah 23:29 “Is not my word like fire,” declares the LORD – Jeremiah 20:9 But if I say, I will not mention his word or speak anymore in his name, “his word is in my heart like a fire, a fire shut up in my bones. I am weary of holding it in; indeed, I cannot.) I pray that He would move me into such a close relationship with Him that I can boldly say like in Isaiah 6:8 “Here am I. Send me!” and pray with all sincerity of heart “ Lord, I will do anything Your Kingdom requires of me. Wherever you want me to go, I’ll go. Whatever the circumstances, I’m willing to follow. If you want to meet a need through my life, I am Your servant and I will do whatever is required.”
This may be far from the perfected half novel I had originally planned in my mind….more like a sack lunch of 5 loaves and 2 fish but my little in His mighty hands is more than enough. John 15:5 “I am the vine; you are the branches. If you remain in me and I in you, you will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing.
To him who is able to keep you form stumbling and to present you before his glorious presence without fault and with great joy—to the only God our Savior be glory, majesty, power and authority, through Jesus Christ our Lord, before all ages, now and forevermore! Amen. Jude 1:24-25
Happy 2018 all! May the Lord grant us all mighty movable hearts for His glory!