Afraid Yet Filled With Joy

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Did you know that the saline crystal of a tear when viewed through a microscope is the shape of a cross?!! Learning that fact touched my heart because if there is anyone who understands the well of emotions behind tears it is Jesus, the One who took the cross in my place, Who sweat blood in agony over such a sacrifice yet remained faithful because there is no greater love than His. I think He designed the crystal of a tear with the cross shape as a way to say “I understand and I love you”.  Psalm 56:8 says -You keep track of all my sorrows. You have collected all my tears in your bottle. You have recorded each one in your book. -You know if He has each tear collected in His bottle He for sure knows and cares for the cause of each one too. Tears come with many emotions..glad, sad, fear… speaking of fear my daughter shared a verse from her morning devotional that got me thinking. Matt. 28: 8 So the women hurried away form the tomb, afraid yet filled with joy, and ran to tell the disciples. – Wait, what?! When was the last time you were “afraid yet filled with joy”?! She also shared John 16:22 with me … So with you: Now is your time of grief, but I will see you again and you will rejoice, and no one will take away your joy. – “No one will take away your joy”!! Wow, seems the key to joy when/whatever, is Jesus! I can know the Word, receive His blessings, but how well do I know HIM?! It’s about a relationship. The women in in Matt.28:8 were afraid because they did not understand and didn’t know what was going on but they had joy because the angels had said Jesus was ALIVE! Its like Phil.4:7 says – And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. – You can’t seek peace that comes FROM understanding it is BEYOND understanding, its in the presence of the Prince of Peace in your life! It’s like Jacob said when he woke up from his dream… “Surely the LORD is in this place, and I was not aware of it.” (Gen. 28:16) WOW!! This story in Genesis has crossed my path and mind numerous times lately like God is trying to underline a concept for me. When God spoke to Jacob in his dream he was in the midst of running away from his brother after cheating him out of his birthright and blessing yet still God in His infinite grace and mercy meets with him anyway! Our human minds can not fathom the deep love of our God… you are never too far gone to repent and believe on Jesus as Lord and Savior of your life…He still wants YOU and has purpose for your life. Phil. 1:6 being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus. -That’s a promise..will we let Him?! So back to our story in Gen. when Jacob realized God was there and he didn’t even know… We always have a choice… we can choose Jesus… to pray Psalm 51:12 Restore to me the joy of your salvation and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me. – Nothing occurs that He is not on His throne above and in control of. Do we choose to have eyes and ears open to perceive Him all around us? 1 Thess. 5:17 pray continually, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus. – Because if I can not find the source of my joy in Jesus regardless of my situations and circumstances than I never will, because human nature is made to worship something to seek something and we will always find ourselves coming up short if we look anywhere but Jesus. I have a list of verses that I will include at the end that remind me of the choice I have every moment I have the privilege to take another breath, to choose joy… joy in Jesus….. lift my eyes Lord, surely You are in this place and I just didn’t notice… make me notice you Jesus all around me. Look at a child if you ever need an example… my 4 year old finds pure joy in rubbing his entire face in his freshly washed, straight out of the dyer, snuggly warm blue blanket (reminds me of Linus in the cartoon Peanuts). Joy in the little things….His whispers can be quite loud if we are tuned into His frequency. He is longing for us not to miss Him… I read in Job 9:32-35 written before the cross… He is not a man like me that I might answer him, that we might confront each other in court. If only there were someone to arbitrate between us, to lay his hand upon us both, someone to remove God’s rod from me, so that his terror would frighten me no more. Then I would speak up with out fear of him, but as it now stands with me, I cannot. – But now we have Jesus this side of the cross!!!! Psalm 16:8 I keep my eyes always on the LORD. With him at my right hand, I will not be shaken. Hebrews 12:2 fixing our eyes on Jesus, the pioneer and perfecter of faith. For the joy set before him he endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. – Praise Jesus Who says -Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go.” Joy…He’s all around us…choose to let Him wrap you up tight like in a snuggly warm fresh out of the dryer blue blanket.
Choose joy/choose well… Isaiah 61:3, 1 Thess. 5:16, 1 Thess. 5:17, 1 Thess. 5:18, Phil. 4:8, Psalm 42:11, Psalm 144:15, Nehemiah 8:10

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