“Why do you ask my name? It is beyond understanding.” Judges 13:18
The other day someone reminded me of something Mother Teresa said, “I have never had clarity; what I have always had is trust…” This really got me thinking… God I trust You but how am I suppose to know what to do next if I don’t have clarity?! He said back, child remember its, walk by faith, not by sight. 2 Cor. 5:7.
As I read in the O.T. today I found myself asking why did these people continue time and time again to go back to their man made idols? Why did they only cry out to the Lord when it got REALLY bad?! AND why do we so often do the same?! Maybe its because we want that clarity… we want something solid to our senses, something we can clearly hold onto. However when things get REALLY bad we realize we don’t want something to hold onto, we want Someone to hold onto us.
Sometimes God has us in a place we don’t want to be but He knows we need to be, for a season. He knows in this certain place or situation we will begin to seek Him for more of who He is and wants to be to us. I remember once when I was very young, I went to a church halloween/harvest festival. They had the equivalent of a haunted house… it was at a church so maybe it was more of a surprise fun house I don’t quite remember. I do however remember pretty much missing the entire walk through because to this day I dislike VERY much anything scary and I hid my face in my dad’s back most of the whole way through. I trusted my father without seeing. If I was with him I would be okay, he would see me through no matter what. (He did, I’m alive today.) How much more our heavenly Father wants us to trust Him like that!
When we are in constant close communion with Him, in His Word and in prayer we can take our next steps without clarity because we trust Him completely to fulfill His purpose for our lives entirely.
In Judges 13 the angel of the Lord appeared to Samson’s mother to be. He told this barren women that she would have a child and he was to be set apart for God. The women tells her husband about this and Manoah prays to the Lord, “O Lord, I beg you, to come again to teach us how to bring up the boy who is to be born.” (13:8) Parents, sounds like a familiar prayer doesn’t it!?!?!
The Lord hears Manoah and returns a second time. However I notice really no more information than what he gave his wife originally was given about what their next steps were to be. When they asked his name even, his response was, why are you asking, its beyond understanding. Maybe the clarity we want so desperately is beyond our understanding, so we trust the unknows to the One who knows and faithfully steward what we DO know.
The angel left and Manoah thinks they may die but his wife assures him they will not die because she is going to trust that which has been entrusted and revealed to her in the moment. Then came the waiting…. for at least 9 months! Sometimes its not about the next step its about trusting faithfully right where I’m at, right where He needs me to be.
Trust Him to be our guide and if there is a next step different from where we are at, somewhere He wants to take us in His plan, trust He will take it first, before us. We can choose reckless trust in the One who is big enough to hold onto us. I’m pretty sure He will not lead us through to the end of our life and say whoops I forgot to make that step clear enough for her and now I can’t complete My work…. no, it would probably go more like, she didn’t trust Me enough, she didn’t have enough faith for Me to lead her beyond what she could see or understand.
Lord, whether You want to lead me to anther place physically or another place spiritually with You, help me to follow faithfully and to choose trusting You recklessly over clarity everyday.
Independent Read: Phil. 1:6, Isaiah 55:8-9, Isaiah 40:28