…I couldn’t bear to see the anguish this would cause my father! Genesis 44:34
In the account of Josephs life in the bible I found myself pondering over his brother Judah. Judah and his brothers had made a colossal mistake and at the end of Genesis 38 we see the grief that it caused their father.
By the beginning of chapter 39 we see Judah running off further down the wrong path. I wonder if Judah saw the anguish on his fathers face caused by his mistake and just figured he was no longer lovable. Maybe he thought he had failed too far this time and most certainly God would no longer include him in any blessing. Who then would care where he went or what he did?
Ever felt all hope has been lost?
Take heart dear one! In Jesus you have a hope that will NEVER disappoint!! (Romans 5:5)
Before the end of rouge chapter 39 in Genesis, God’s amazing, mind blowing grace shows up!!! Praise Him, He is faithful even when we are faithless (2 Tim. 2:13)! I believe Judah’s response to the situation in chapter 44 is a result of a complete heart overhaul that occurred right here in chapter 39!
Anyone have a “rouge chapter 39” in life that they just have to get down and thank God for because it’s what brought them to Him?! (Genesis 50:20)
Judah’s heart had been transformed to reflect our Saviors in that he was willing to offer his own life now in order to spare his younger brother Johnathan’s! And what is his explanation for doing so!!!?! Gen. 44:34 …I couldn’t bear to see the anguish this would cause my father!
Judah had seen that look of anguish once before and chose to keep that mind picture only as a reminder of a place he never wanted to be again and to document how deep a pit God Himself had rescued him out of. Psalm 40:2 He lifted me out of the slimy pit, out of the mud and mire; he set my feet on a rock and gave me a firm place to stand.
What a picture of our Savior’s heart in that Judah was willing to do the hard thing, to live his life out for a higher calling than earthly gain, to live in the transforming work of God rather than give the enemy the satisfaction of remaining under the rock of regret and in the shadow of shame. Judah wanted to please his fathers heart. Jesus in the garden was willing to lay aside His will to accomplish what the Father had sent Him to do. Jesus wanted to please the Father’s heart.
“Father, if you are willing, take this cup from me; yet not my will, but yours be done.” Luke 22:42 For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life. John 3:16
Jesus had wished the Father’s plan could have been carried out differently but when it could not have been, He exuded ultimate strength by laying aside His own. He took the “no” for a greater “yes”. The “yes” that saved our lives as believers in Jesus.
What “no” am I willing to bear in order to spare the look of anguish on my heavenly Fathers face and to allow Him to work out His loftier “yes” with my life?
Let me never forget the blessings of Jesus. In Him I have eternal life and the power of His Spirit that raised Him from the grave within me! He sacrificed Himself so that I could see anything He asks of me not as a sacrifice but rather as an honor! An honor to lay down, to work out, to give back… to the glory of the One through whose death and resurrection redeemed my life from the pit and won me life eternal.
All this blessing is for you too. It’s for all who would recognize themselves as imperfect sinful human beings in need of a Savior (Romans 3:23). A Savior who is Jesus Christ, who laid down His life through death on a cross in place of our’s (Romans 5:8), who rose again defeating death (1 Cor. 15:4) and now through His life offers us new life and extends forgiveness, and amazing grace to all who would just believe (1 Cor. 15:55-57). It’s one simple prayer to receive and believe on Jesus as your God and Savior, to receive life eternal.
Psalm 103:1-5 Let all that I am praise the LORD; with my whole heart, I will praise his holy name. Let all that I am praise the LORD; may I never forget the good things he does for me. He forgives all my sins and heals all my diseases. He redeems me from death and crowns me with love and tender mercies. He fills my life with good things. My youth is renewed like the eagle’s!
Don’t wait dear one – today, take up and live in the abundant blessings of Jesus Christ.
Independent Read: Hebrews 10:23